My New Year Miracle

I have to be honest. 2012 was not an easy year for me. It was a keep putting one foot in front of the other kind of year. I’m one of those people who gets really excited about the new year and given how difficult 2012 was for me, I was especially excited for the end of 2012 and the beginning of 2013. I love January 1st in the same way that I love getting a new fresh notebook. It’s a completely blank slate. It’s symbolic of a fresh start and loaded with possibilities.

Within a few days of the new year, I found myself in a hospital room with Gus surrounded by doctors and nurses with concerned looks on their faces and no answers as to what was wrong with Gus. We spent the beginning of 2013 in the pediatric ward at Cedars Sinai. It’s a long story filled with mystery and miracle. Basically, Gus’s symptoms looked like he was in keteoacidosis but his lab results looked the opposite.  His blood sugar was dangerously low (45) and his bicarbonate index was also dangerously low. I didn’t even know what a bicarbonate index was until this happened. Basically, it’s the index that controls and maintains the metabolic functioning in the body. A normal index is 23. A kid who has severe dehydration to the point of hospitalization is 14-15. Gus’s bicarbonate index when we got to the emergency room was a 7.  With no explanation as to why.

As a parent, your biggest fear is that something will happen to your child. And when something does, it shakes you to your very core. Unfortunately, this is not the first time I have had to see my son in such distress and beg God not to let my baby die. It sounds dramatic, but only because it was. That’s where we were. The hardest part was that the doctors didn’t have any answers. They couldn’t explain why he had gotten so sick, what was wrong with him, or if he was going to get better.

The level of powerlessness that I felt brought me to my knees. I must have said every prayer that I knew how to pray. In every kind of way. It was the only thing to do. And then for reason, 36 hours later, at 5 in the morning, Gus woke up and asked for a cheeseburger. By the next afternoon, he was begging to go for a walk and asking me why I looked so sad. When I told him that mommy gets really worried when he gets sick because I love him so much, his reply was simply, “But mom- you don’t have to be sad. I’m not sick. I’m better.”

And he was right.

Have you ever watched a team of doctors in a room, scratching their heads and looking at each other with confusion as they try to figure out what just happened? I have. All they kept saying over and over again was, “it really is a mystery. It doesn’t make any sense.” Even the nurses were amazed. When I brought him into the play room to play with the toy trains, a bunch of them gathered at the window to watch, pointing him out to other nurses, and saying- “can you believe that’s the kid in 4021?” I saw their exclamations of “wow’s” and “no ways.”

The doctors are still saying it’s a mystery. But I’m not. It’s not a mystery to me. It was a miracle.


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11 Responses to My New Year Miracle

  1. Leslie says:

    Wow, how horrible. Glad to hear that he’s feeling better. You don’t seem the alternative medical person, but I would recommend checking out a Naturopathic Physician. They go through 4 years of med school, same as MDS, in fact the first two years are the same, however, they have a holistic approach and examine diet, history, do blood tests, all sorts of things and can often see things that traditional mds miss. ‘
    Good luck though!

    • Mommy Psychologist says:

      Thanks, Leslie. I’m definitely open to holistic approaches. I’ll check it out.

  2. Jennifer says:

    Amazing! I’m so happy to hear that’s he’s had a complete turn-around. I truly believe everything happens for a reason, and hopefully this scary incident has a purpose down the road. I had a scary blood infection when I was 18 (caused by untreated strep throat), which the doctors who treated me had no awareness of and they actually began talks to amputate my legs. I refused, and left AMA, and was able to walk again within a week and had all scars disappear within a few months… but the experience left me with a healthy skepticism for “expert opinion” over my own intuition.

    • Mommy Psychologist says:

      Thanks, Jennifer. And thank you for sharing your own story. Believe me, I have lots to say about intuition in my next post!

  3. Mama Melch says:

    What a trying ordeal! I’m so glad Gus is better and hope this means you are back for a while.

  4. js says:

    God answers prayers. So glad your little guy is okay. Also glad to see you posting again :)

  5. Sandra Langstaff says:

    So glad to hear he made a just-as-quick recovery (as quick as the onset) but wow, so stressful.
    I truly believe whatever children go through, it is probably harder on the mom than what they are dealing with! Treat yourself to some good r+r when you can, your body needs it!
    Take care.

  6. Jamie says:

    I’m glad to hear that Gus is feeling better!

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